37 Days to go....but who's counting?

I sure am!!  I'm excited, worried, determined..so many words to describe the upcoming events. 

My surgery date is 4/25/2016.  I will be going from a Lap-Band to a Roux N Y, also known as gastric bypass.  All my life, I have tried everything I can think of to try to loose weight.  Weight watcher, Lap-Band surgery, Belviq, cabbage diet, Atkin's diet....my list could go on and on.  But finally I have decided to be done with it all once and for all. 

My highest weight is 327lbs but I'm down a little from that.  I have wondered if things said to me while growing up need to be dealt with or will it even matter when I can't eat more than a few bites of food at a time.  

I'm looking forward to having a month off.  Yes, most of it will be spent healing and recovering, but I believe that will be a good time to deal with things....I won't be able to turn to food for comfort so I will have to face these things head on.  Maybe I should check into seeing my therapist during that time....

Forty pounds in the first month....gone....or so they say.  I cannot imagine being below 300lbs....it's been so long and I have so many things I'm looking forward to.  Using one air plane seat when I travel, getting on some amusement park rides, walking without getting out of breath, riding my bike, n longer being considered "pre-diabetic", finding new ways to "socialize" besides basing it around food, maybe get rid of a couple medications, and finally having more energy and feeling wonderful.   

It's funny how as you get older, your priority changes.  I use to worry about loosing a lot of weight because the saggy skin scared the daylights out of me.  To me...saggy skin was worse than being fat!!!  But that's all changed now.  I down care how much saggy skin I have or what it looks like, my priority has finally changed into not worrying about what I look like, but worrying about how I feel.  And about how long I will be around to take care of my loved ones.  In the end, that's all that matters....

So I will close for now.  So excited to get this process started.  On 4/11/2016 I will begin my liver shrinking diet...my meals will consist of protein shakes and an extremely small dinner.  Wish me luck!  :)